twenty years from now i am gonna look
back and remember that you were that one
person who could turn every frown into a smile
in a few simple words; that person who lifted my head
when i was losing faith in myself; that one person
who carried tears on her shoulders after every fight, every break
up, every death; that one person who accepted who i was
when everyone else laughed in my face; that one person
that accepted every decision i made, believe i make the
right decisions; that one person who knew who i
really was and that one person that made the biggest
difference in my life - my best friend

I believe in sleeping in.
I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80.
I believe in love, arguing,
& jamming out by yourself in the car.
I believe in kisses on the forehead.
I believe in long kisses, smiling until your cheeks hurt,
& laughing until you cry. I believe in being silly
and crazy with your friends. I believe in taking chances
and making mistakes. I believe in having someone
tell you that you're beautiful.
I believe in swinging on swings
& running in the rain. I believe in miracles
& random acts of kindness.
I believe in saying hello to anyone & everyone.
I believe in second chances.
and i believe that everyone deserves one.

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away. " -Grey's Anatomy

Don't EVER let someone tell you you can't do something.
Not even me. you got a dream, you gotta protect it.
people can't do something themselves, they wanna tell
you that you can't do it. you want something? go get it.

-Persuit of Happyness

 So fail. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb or two or twelve, & you will fall & it'll hurt. But the harder you fall, the farther you will rise. The louder you fail, the clearer your future becomes. Failure is a gift, welcome it. There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances passed them by, why they didn't take the road less traveled. Those people aren't you. You have front row seats to your own transformation, & in transforming yourself, you might even transform the world. & it will be electric, & I promise you it will be terrifying. Embrace that; embrace the new person you're becoming. This is your moment. I promise you, it is now, now, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now. Own that; know that deep in your bones. & go to sleep every night knowing that, wake up every morning remembering that. & then...keep going.

Chances are always missed. First chances, second chances, last chances. They fly right past us; like fireflies, shooting stars & like a pretty butterfly. Even though you try to catch the chances, like you try to catch the fireflies, or whether you savor the precious moments, like when you see that shooting star, or even when you think about how that beautiful butterfly was once a vulnerable little caterpillar, it doesn`t make any of the chances seem any easier to catch, any easier to savor, or any closer. In fact, it makes them seem farther away. Harder to catch. Harder to savor. & harder to remember once they have passed. But that`s the thing about chances. They don`t want to be, caught, savored, or remembered, they just want to be chances. Things that happen in an instant. Like the firefly passing by, the shooting star soaring through the night sky, & the butterfly casually gliding by. & those few individuals who are lucky enough to catch a firefly, savor a shooting star or relate to the butterfly, are the few individuals who deserve a chance.

 We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves that knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.
-Grey's Anatomy

we learn the most valuable lessons
from our hardships and mistakes.
they may be big or small,
but the things that we learn
are always there to teach us,
to remind us of where we were in the past
and that we don't ever want to go back. 

so maybe im a little bit different, but thats okay. so maybe you make fun of me, thats okay too. there's something behind everyones story. there's a reason why each person has something about them you dont like. so keep on making fun of me, keep on making fun of anyone. i know you dont have a clue what my story is. you dont know why i am or who i am. you have no clue what happened in my past. maybe mean people look angry because they havent ever loved. maybe people with no style have no one to give them money or anyone to care what they look like. maybe shy people have been left alone in the dark with no one to run to. maybe jealous people have been hurt too many times & maybe the ones who hurt people are the ones who never get any attention, who are never loved & have always been hurt. so maybe i know your story & maybe i dont. all i know is you're the one who hurts me, anytime i walk into those hallways. dont make me hurt again until you see whats behind my eyes. until you know my life story. until you know the real me

she smiles like everyone expects her to,
she living up to the expectation of
never letting anything get to her.
but something's wrong with that smile today.
congratulations,kid. You got to her.

We wonder why black and white photos capture our soul
I think it's because without color, we aren't drawn to the makeup,
And the color of our eyes, or our hair, or how tan our skin is.
Black and white captures the innocence on ones face,
And the hurt they've gone through to feel vulnerability.
The glow we see comes from the inside.
Brighting our eyes, our skin, and our smile.
It grabs the truth that liberates us.

i was born to be stubborn.
a little bossy too.
to push people.
to push myself.
i was taught to never take life for granted.
to live a little, to love with everything i have.
i learned to never give up ;; to believe in myself.
&& most of all, to fight for myself.

nobody is perfect.
perfection is a lack of flaws
and a lack of flaws is a
flaw in itself, which makes
the perfect person in
question, have a flaw.

A random call in the middle of the night.

I see your name on the Caller ID.

 Yeah, you sure do love me... When you're drunk.

On the phone a year later, he asked her if she missed him.
Her reply was,
"I don't miss you, I miss the guy who called me every second he could... who sat home on Saturday nights thinking of me when we couldn't be together.. the guy who came to my house after every fight, the guy who told me I looked like a star, the guy who wasn't just the love of my life but my best friend.
That's the guy I miss. How could I miss you?
I don't even know you

you can call me names. you can hate on me.
you can refuse to ever talk to me. but hey,
i won't care. that's just who i am. because
once upon a friendship, someone taught me
not to care what others think of me.

i've learned that things change
and people change . it doesn't
mean you forget the past or try
to cover it up ;; it simply means
that you've moved on & treasure
the memories. letting go doesn't
mean giving up it just means
accepting that some things
just aren't meant to be.

 There's always gonna be that one guy. The one
who you fight with constantly and drives you
completely insane. He knows just what to say
to piss you off beyond reason one minute and
then have you laughing hysterically the next.
He's one who knows you inside and out and he
knows about your imperfections, but he doesn't
care because he loves you anyway. You can
hang out with him doing nothing and still
have a good time. You cry to him after something
bad happens. He tells you everything will be
okay and you know it will be because he said
so. He's the one who will always love you no
matter what happens and you know what, you'll
always love him too. Between the stupid
nicknames and the fights he doesn't always
win. He's the one who has everything,
because he's your everything.

She's the kind of person
who puts quotes up on her
wall. Little pieces of
herself for the world to see.

all of the sudden I didn't
fit in anywhere. not at school,
not at home.. and every time
I turned around, another person
I'd known forever felt like a
stranger to me. even I felt like
a stranger to me.

maybe we should all decide we're going to meet the man of our dreams when we're twenty-seven. then we'll stop squeezing into tight shirts & walking around half naked and analyzing every encounter as future husband material. we'll stop feeling the need to put on makeup to take out the trash just in case he's walking by. maybe we should just assume that we'll meet our dream man at some future point & stop driving ourselves crazy before then.